Back to the Grind

So, I'm back up at school and just as suspected, classes began full force without any ease into the learning process.  I came back to a test, complex matrix calculations, t-distribution statistics and the horror of "change of variable" calculus.... Fun.  I feel sometimes like I'm living the famous opening to "Tale of Two Cities":

"It was the best of times, it was the worst of times, it was the age of wisdom, it was the age of foolishness, it was the epoch of belief, it was the epoch of incredulity, it was the season of Light, it was the season of Darkness, it was the spring of hope, it was the winter of despair, we had everything before us, we had nothing before us, we were all going direct to Heaven, we were all going direct the other way" -Charles Dickens

In my case, "the other way" just so happens to be "change of variable" calculus and the final test worth 34% of my grade looming over my head.  H-E- double hockeysticks.  I love it here though, I really do; I just feel like a worker ant in a colony full of queens.  I study and study and study, I get decent grades, 86 here, 91 there, 70 (oops) in some places, but when I look around and see everyone elses 100's I must be doing something wrong.  Oh well, got to get back to homework... back to the daily grind.